Well I have been doing well since my last post (which in a moment of despair I deleted soon after it was posted, so don’t even know if any of you saw it). The jist of that post was that I felt as though I hit rock bottom again. I started back to ww 2 weeks ago, and literally cried at what I have done to myself this year. My weight was back to 216 lbs. Therefore, I gained back all of the weight I lost (plus a few lbs) from the year before. OK, so I made it out of my well of self pity and have had a couple of good weeks.

I lost 8.2 lbs last week and another 3.2 this week, so very happy about that. I have in no way been perfect about my eating, and this past week I was actually quite the pig, but I have been very good about exercising, so that is helping.

Rob wanted to by a Wii for our birthdays, so we did, and I have been using that to exercise. We have the Jillian Michaels game, and Wii Fit Plus. Of course, Jillian gives you a very good workout, and the Wii Fit is just fun and challenging in a different kind of way. I guess whatever works, it has helped me to get back into the swing of things. I have exercised every day except one in the past 2 weeks, and crave it once again. Please let this feeling stay around.

I had an accident at work about a month ago and really put my hip/pelvis out of whack so I haven’t been able to do any running, unless I want to walk around for the next couple of days in severe pain. I think the chiro got it figured out, but I am taking it slow getting back into it so as not to aggravate it again.

Well, that is my update. Weight watchers is helping. As I have said before, I do belive I will need ww or something similar for the rest of my life. It is my AA.

Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

Today the scale read 220. Three pounds is great, yes, but I know that number should have been lower and would have been had I not fudged the day before my weigh-in.

I was doing very well all week. As usual, I ate out a couple times, but I even stooped to ordering off the demeaning “Weight Management” Menu at The Cheesecake Factory. Of course, I did enjoy some cheesecake too, as I had never been there before, but I only had a half a piece, and unsweet tea for the drink. BUT, when it came to a good deal, I took a chance.

Monday night, I took my friend Staci out to Chili’s for her birthday and since they were having a good deal where you can get an appetizer, 2 entrees and a dessert for $20 we sprung for that. I could see there were no real safe bets on this menu but I went with a Quesadilla Salad hoping that the leafy goodness (and the fact that prior to this dinner I had only had a granola bar at 140 calories) would save me.

In hindsight, this was bad as the appetizer of chips and queso had 900 something calories (approx 450 for my half) and the salad was 1300 calories! The dessert was another 1200! So, I can see exactly why that last day prevented me from clearing this 220 lb hurdle I have been facing for so long. (Technically, the scale said 220.8 but I prefer to think of it as just 220 )

The past couple days I have also had a cold coming on, and while I exercised yesterday, today I was just feeling totaled so I didn’t exercise. I really would have liked to just to get some momentum going again after that catastrophe. But atleast today was a good day for eating so that much will help.

I am really stressed because it is the end of the semester and I have a lot to do but I need to make sure that my diet remains a priority. I just have to keep this new mentality about food and my relationship with it, and keep exercising. I can’t wait to see what happens if I keep it up

This morning the scale read 223. Not bad. I lost 2 pounds since last week. I would have loved to hit 220 but we would all love to lose weight faster.

I ate out a lot this past week, but I ate sensibly. Mostly water for my drinks at dinner and I chose the most sensible thing that I could. Yet, I did not sacrifice my lifestyle. I enjoy going out to dinner with friends (or lunch) and one of my friends had a birthday party this past weekend and I enjoyed myself there. I admit, this is one day where I know with 100% certainty that my calories were well beyond my limit, but I just decided to pick it up the next day.

I exercised only 3 times, I think. My memory is fuzzy about that. It was atleast 3, possibly 4…. but probably 3. Between all these factors, I know exactly why I lost less weight. But that’s fine because I am still moving along and I know I am going to succeed. I am not discouraged at all. I am very excited to lose this weight.

I ran outside for the first time yesterday, and it was  SOOOO much harder than the treadmill. I ran with Eric, actually. We got through a mile without stopping and then did intervals of walking and running for the rest of the time.

That’s my update! I will let you know what happens this next week!

Week one was pretty good. I actually controlled myself at work. I brought my own meals to eat and avoided the fresh-baked allure of chocolate chip cookies. I worked out 5 days this week which was also good. The scale said 225 on Tuesday which was exactly a week from when I started so I lost 5 or 6 pounds, which I am happy with. Let’s all keep on it this time. I know we can do it

I am called into work today, so I won’t be starting back to ww today.  I did make myself get out of bed though and workout.  Only did 30min on treadmill, but at least I broke a sweat and got it done. 

Hopefully I can stay away from too much food.  One day at a time!

OK….warning here!  I am very tired, been up since 0400, so this might get a little weird. 

OK, we all have been MIA from here the past couple of months.  WHY???  Oh, I know we love treating ourselves like crap, right???  Why, oh why am I doing this to myself? 

Anway,  last time I  posted I challenged myself to eat only “real” foods.  I did very good with that for about 3 weeks.  It was totally amazing.  Honeslty,  I know my energy and general sense of well being always increased when I was eating “healthier” in the past, but this surpassed any of that.  This time I was fairly strict with only eating “real” fruits, veggies, meats, eggs, nuts, etc.  No processed foods.  In some ways it was so easy.  After the 1st day or so, I really had very little cravings.  I seemed to eat the right amount of calories without really trying, and my energy was almost euphoric at times.  All that said, is exactly why I have wanted to pull my hair out lately.  I have been down the dark ugly, sugar and fat laden road of processed foods again as of late.  They are posionous and addicting….I truly believe that more now than ever.  Why can’t I break the junk food cycle?  Every morning when I wake up, I want to do well, and start my day out right…..then I give in and just blow it again. 

I read Jillian Michaels book “Master Your Metabolism”.  It is an awesome book. It addresses the issues of how food affects all your hormones, thus metabolism.  Even though Jillian overcame being overweight years ago, she had to work so hard to maintain it until she discovered the benefits of eating real foods.  Foods that support your metabolism.   Now, she still works hard to look as good as she does, but she says it is so much easier. 

OK, Eric you told me you are contemplating Weight Watchers.  I have been thinking this week, that I need to get back there once again also.  My plan was to go to tomorrow’s meeting.  So that is my goal.  I will do that unless I get called into work ( I am on call tomorrow).   I do feel as though food is my addiction and I will probably need a support group of some sorts for the rest of my life to overcome and fight this issue.  I do hate the idea of paying for someoen to weigh and motivate me, but hey….if you get to goal, you don’t have to pay anymore…..sounds good to me. 

No more excuses, I cannot waste my life away living this way.  If we want to get this blog going again, I am game.  This time though, let’s not only be supportive of one another, but I woulde also like to see some tough love thrown around.  No more letting each other slide.  Let’s be like Jillian and get in one another’s face about this. 

OK, starting tomorrow…………EAT LESS….MOVE MORE!!!!!!!!!  That’s all there is to it! Right?!?!

I have been doing poorly for so long that I didn’t even want to write about it on here. I have been eating crappy foods and not keeping up my exercising regimen. I am up to 230 unfortunately and that is far from my goal. On a positive note, through my intermittent exercise running on the readmill I have been able to accomplish a run of 4 miles without break which is awesome, even though I have no weight loss to show for this imrovement.

My goal is still the same for now… get under 200 lbs before 2010. Today is day one again.

Got my exercise in.  50 minutes on treadmill and approx 525 calories burned.  Woohooo!  I am loving it!  Now comes the rest of the day…….can I survive the day without any processed foods?  We shall see…….I will try to post later.  Got to get going, get the kids going and get to work!

Have a great day!

I went back to weight watchers today.  It was good and depressing at the same time.  Here I am again, once again, creeping towards the weight I was when I started there last year.  So basically I feel as though I am starting over, but I guess that is better than quitting. 

OK……this is big and exciting.  I am scared to try this because it will be hard, but I am also excited about the challenge.  WW is starting their second Lose for Good campaign, so I picked the right week to start back.  Basically, ww will donate $1 of food for every pound that is lost from now until Oct. 17th.  Last year was the first time and 4 million pounds were lost in those 7 weeks.  They do set a limit of donating $1million, so last year they donated $1million to two different hunger relief organizations.  The local chapters also collected food donations from members to give to local food pantries.  They collected a total of 1.9 million pounds of food during that time.  I feel like it is a pretty amazing thing to be part of.  Anyway, I want to do my part by losing as much weight as I can between now and Oct. 17th by setting some quite challenging goals for myself. 

I have been doing so more reading this week about the importance of whole/ real foods in our diet.  I reallly want to be as healthy as I can, so here is my challenge for the next  7 weeks:

1.  Eliminate refined carbohydrates and processed foods.  “If it didn’t have a mother or it didn’t grow from the ground, don’t eat it”. 

2.  I will only drink water, green tea, coffe, milk or fruit juices. 

3.  I will not eat any fast food. I will bring my lunch to work, and not eat from the cafeteria or vending machines.  I would also like to challenge myself to not buy any fast food for my children during this time either.  This is going to be especially challenging  when we start dance, volleyball and football in the next few weeks. 

4.  Quit eating at 7 p.m.  I want to feel hungry when I go to bed……..make myself think about all the people in this world that are truly hungry. 

5.  Exercise/sweat for 30min at least 5 days/ week. 

Quote from ww today  “Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending”.

It always perplexes me to think of all the “starving” people in our world and compare it to the number of people that are working every day to control what goes in their mouth as to not eat too much.  It is such an imbalance. 

OK…anyone else up for the challenge…..you have nothing to lose but a few pounds!!!!

OK>>>>ready, set, go!!!!

Here is what I will eat:

any fruits and vegetables, non-processed meats, grains that have not been processed, nuts, milk & eggs. 

I can’t wait to see how much better I feel following this eating plan.

Started the day off right.  Up at 0515.  Did my exercising as planned- 40min cardio and bowflex workout.   What a rush to start the day!  Don’t ask me why I ever got out of this routine.  I must get back into it. 

Now comes the hard part…..the rest of the day, where I have to control what passes my lips. 

Have a great day all!