Well I have been doing well since my last post (which in a moment of despair I deleted soon after it was posted, so don’t even know if any of you saw it). The jist of that post was that I felt as though I hit rock bottom again. I started back to ww 2 weeks ago, and literally cried at what I have done to myself this year. My weight was back to 216 lbs. Therefore, I gained back all of the weight I lost (plus a few lbs) from the year before. OK, so I made it out of my well of self pity and have had a couple of good weeks.

I lost 8.2 lbs last week and another 3.2 this week, so very happy about that. I have in no way been perfect about my eating, and this past week I was actually quite the pig, but I have been very good about exercising, so that is helping.

Rob wanted to by a Wii for our birthdays, so we did, and I have been using that to exercise. We have the Jillian Michaels game, and Wii Fit Plus. Of course, Jillian gives you a very good workout, and the Wii Fit is just fun and challenging in a different kind of way. I guess whatever works, it has helped me to get back into the swing of things. I have exercised every day except one in the past 2 weeks, and crave it once again. Please let this feeling stay around.

I had an accident at work about a month ago and really put my hip/pelvis out of whack so I haven’t been able to do any running, unless I want to walk around for the next couple of days in severe pain. I think the chiro got it figured out, but I am taking it slow getting back into it so as not to aggravate it again.

Well, that is my update. Weight watchers is helping. As I have said before, I do belive I will need ww or something similar for the rest of my life. It is my AA.

Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

I am called into work today, so I won’t be starting back to ww today.  I did make myself get out of bed though and workout.  Only did 30min on treadmill, but at least I broke a sweat and got it done. 

Hopefully I can stay away from too much food.  One day at a time!

OK….warning here!  I am very tired, been up since 0400, so this might get a little weird. 

OK, we all have been MIA from here the past couple of months.  WHY???  Oh, I know we love treating ourselves like crap, right???  Why, oh why am I doing this to myself? 

Anway,  last time I  posted I challenged myself to eat only “real” foods.  I did very good with that for about 3 weeks.  It was totally amazing.  Honeslty,  I know my energy and general sense of well being always increased when I was eating “healthier” in the past, but this surpassed any of that.  This time I was fairly strict with only eating “real” fruits, veggies, meats, eggs, nuts, etc.  No processed foods.  In some ways it was so easy.  After the 1st day or so, I really had very little cravings.  I seemed to eat the right amount of calories without really trying, and my energy was almost euphoric at times.  All that said, is exactly why I have wanted to pull my hair out lately.  I have been down the dark ugly, sugar and fat laden road of processed foods again as of late.  They are posionous and addicting….I truly believe that more now than ever.  Why can’t I break the junk food cycle?  Every morning when I wake up, I want to do well, and start my day out right…..then I give in and just blow it again. 

I read Jillian Michaels book “Master Your Metabolism”.  It is an awesome book. It addresses the issues of how food affects all your hormones, thus metabolism.  Even though Jillian overcame being overweight years ago, she had to work so hard to maintain it until she discovered the benefits of eating real foods.  Foods that support your metabolism.   Now, she still works hard to look as good as she does, but she says it is so much easier. 

OK, Eric you told me you are contemplating Weight Watchers.  I have been thinking this week, that I need to get back there once again also.  My plan was to go to tomorrow’s meeting.  So that is my goal.  I will do that unless I get called into work ( I am on call tomorrow).   I do feel as though food is my addiction and I will probably need a support group of some sorts for the rest of my life to overcome and fight this issue.  I do hate the idea of paying for someoen to weigh and motivate me, but hey….if you get to goal, you don’t have to pay anymore…..sounds good to me. 

No more excuses, I cannot waste my life away living this way.  If we want to get this blog going again, I am game.  This time though, let’s not only be supportive of one another, but I woulde also like to see some tough love thrown around.  No more letting each other slide.  Let’s be like Jillian and get in one another’s face about this. 

OK, starting tomorrow…………EAT LESS….MOVE MORE!!!!!!!!!  That’s all there is to it! Right?!?!

Got my exercise in.  50 minutes on treadmill and approx 525 calories burned.  Woohooo!  I am loving it!  Now comes the rest of the day…….can I survive the day without any processed foods?  We shall see…….I will try to post later.  Got to get going, get the kids going and get to work!

Have a great day!

I went back to weight watchers today.  It was good and depressing at the same time.  Here I am again, once again, creeping towards the weight I was when I started there last year.  So basically I feel as though I am starting over, but I guess that is better than quitting. 

OK……this is big and exciting.  I am scared to try this because it will be hard, but I am also excited about the challenge.  WW is starting their second Lose for Good campaign, so I picked the right week to start back.  Basically, ww will donate $1 of food for every pound that is lost from now until Oct. 17th.  Last year was the first time and 4 million pounds were lost in those 7 weeks.  They do set a limit of donating $1million, so last year they donated $1million to two different hunger relief organizations.  The local chapters also collected food donations from members to give to local food pantries.  They collected a total of 1.9 million pounds of food during that time.  I feel like it is a pretty amazing thing to be part of.  Anyway, I want to do my part by losing as much weight as I can between now and Oct. 17th by setting some quite challenging goals for myself. 

I have been doing so more reading this week about the importance of whole/ real foods in our diet.  I reallly want to be as healthy as I can, so here is my challenge for the next  7 weeks:

1.  Eliminate refined carbohydrates and processed foods.  “If it didn’t have a mother or it didn’t grow from the ground, don’t eat it”. 

2.  I will only drink water, green tea, coffe, milk or fruit juices. 

3.  I will not eat any fast food. I will bring my lunch to work, and not eat from the cafeteria or vending machines.  I would also like to challenge myself to not buy any fast food for my children during this time either.  This is going to be especially challenging  when we start dance, volleyball and football in the next few weeks. 

4.  Quit eating at 7 p.m.  I want to feel hungry when I go to bed……..make myself think about all the people in this world that are truly hungry. 

5.  Exercise/sweat for 30min at least 5 days/ week. 

Quote from ww today  “Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending”.

It always perplexes me to think of all the “starving” people in our world and compare it to the number of people that are working every day to control what goes in their mouth as to not eat too much.  It is such an imbalance. 

OK…anyone else up for the challenge…..you have nothing to lose but a few pounds!!!!

OK>>>>ready, set, go!!!!

Here is what I will eat:

any fruits and vegetables, non-processed meats, grains that have not been processed, nuts, milk & eggs. 

I can’t wait to see how much better I feel following this eating plan.

“No stream or gas drives anything until it is confined. No Niagara is ever turned into light and power until it is tunneled. No life ever grows great until it is focused, dedicated and disciplined.”
~Harry E. Fosdick

Started the day off right.  Up at 0515.  Did my exercising as planned- 40min cardio and bowflex workout.   What a rush to start the day!  Don’t ask me why I ever got out of this routine.  I must get back into it. 

Now comes the hard part…..the rest of the day, where I have to control what passes my lips. 

Have a great day all!

OK………I know you have no reason to believe me, due to past performance, but I am here to say…….”This week will be different,  I want my life back”

I am SICK of this…SICK,SICK,SICK,SICK of this.   I have not worked out one time since my 1/2 marathon.  I feel DISGUSTING.  This last week I really started to feel very FAT.  Sorry to be so graphic, but this past week I have started to  just feel the fat rolling over the top of my waistband and from under the bottom of my bra…..it is so gross.  How did I let this happen again????

I just spent most of the past hour reading my weight loss blog from last summer, when I lost a total of almost 40lbs (now I have gained almost 30 back).  It was quite inpsiring to read how the weight  came off and how good I felt.   I kept writing over and over again about how it was so important for me to get up early and exercise, and get it over for the day……plus start the day out right!   The other big change was my lack of buying diet coke to have at home.  I have totally been doing that gain this year.  That crap is not good for me…..I have said it time and time again…it make me feel like crap.  I don’t want to feel this way anymore.  It is a terrible addiction.  I need to try and control it once again.  So……once again…..let me say it here….no more diet coke for this chick.  Just like breaking any other addiction,  the first few days are the hardest, so I am trying to pump myself up for a good week, a week to start getting back on track to a healthy life.  I want to feel again like I did last year this time.  It was awesome, awesome, awesome! 

My goals this week:

1.  Post here daily!  Let you know how I am doing

2.  No diet Coke…..drink 8-10 glasses of water daily.

3.  Do not eat any overt sugars. 

4.  Log food intake daily….aim for 1700-1900 calories and eat 5-6 fruits and veggies.

5.  Exercise 5-6 times this week.

6.  Go to bed early ( I deserve this), get up early!

OK.  here is my exercise plan for the week: 

Monday 0515:  Eliptical 30 min – 40 min, bowflex

Tuesday 0500:  Treadmill 3 miles

Wednesday 0500:  Eliptical 30-40min, bowflex

Thursday 0700:  Treadmill 4 miles

Friday 0500:  Eliptical 30-40min, bowflex

Saturday 0800:  Treadmill 4 miles

I am going to paste these goals and my exercise plan into Word and print them out to hang up in my bathroom.  So I see them each morning. 

My “dream”….to make health and fitness my hobby!!

Ok, so I just read my profile page.   This is one of the things I wrote:

                  ” I also have a goal to run a 1/2 marathon and possibly a full marathon this year yet.”

Note the word “run” in that sentence.  Well, according to that I have not met my goal for this year, so I do need to continue training and hopefully be able to “run” a half marathon. 

It is all about goals and then the discipline to follow through.  Ellen your comment to me about discipline is so true.  I crave to be more disciplined.  Yes, I will keep that one word at the tip of my tongue….discipline!  I need to find some.  I still believe in what I said one other time to about discipline….that the right amount of discipline actually results in freedom to do many other things.

Oh heck!  I might as well just jump right back in!  I am looking at signing up for another 1/2 marathon sometime this fall.  I found one in Minneapolis on Halloween.  I have been rather depressed about my lackluster performance training for this last one.  Well, what should I do….just give up?  NO!!  I must get back in the saddle and try again.  If I sign up for this 1/2, it is 13 wks away.  That gives me plenty of time to get back in shape. 

OK, that is all for now.  I work tonight and tomorrow night  6p-6:30a.m.  I am trying to get the laundry and some other crap done today, but otherwise kind of being a bum since I don’t get to go to bed until tomorrow morning sometime.  I haven’t worked out since the 1/2 last Sat.  I was very sore Sunday and Monday.  The only problem I have had now is that the bottom of my right foot really hurts.  That didn’t start though until Wed. so, that is weird.  I am not sure what to make of that. 

Otherwise,  I feel as bloated and disgusting as ever because I have been eating junk again this week and can’t get out of the habit. 

OK> new days and new goals ahead. 

Will post some goals for next week sometime this weekend. 

Eric, how is my other partner in crime???