Eric’s Dream

Today the scale read 220. Three pounds is great, yes, but I know that number should have been lower and would have been had I not fudged the day before my weigh-in.

I was doing very well all week. As usual, I ate out a couple times, but I even stooped to ordering off the demeaning “Weight Management” Menu at The Cheesecake Factory. Of course, I did enjoy some cheesecake too, as I had never been there before, but I only had a half a piece, and unsweet tea for the drink. BUT, when it came to a good deal, I took a chance.

Monday night, I took my friend Staci out to Chili’s for her birthday and since they were having a good deal where you can get an appetizer, 2 entrees and a dessert for $20 we sprung for that. I could see there were no real safe bets on this menu but I went with a Quesadilla Salad hoping that the leafy goodness (and the fact that prior to this dinner I had only had a granola bar at 140 calories) would save me.

In hindsight, this was bad as the appetizer of chips and queso had 900 something calories (approx 450 for my half) and the salad was 1300 calories! The dessert was another 1200! So, I can see exactly why that last day prevented me from clearing this 220 lb hurdle I have been facing for so long. (Technically, the scale said 220.8 but I prefer to think of it as just 220 )

The past couple days I have also had a cold coming on, and while I exercised yesterday, today I was just feeling totaled so I didn’t exercise. I really would have liked to just to get some momentum going again after that catastrophe. But atleast today was a good day for eating so that much will help.

I am really stressed because it is the end of the semester and I have a lot to do but I need to make sure that my diet remains a priority. I just have to keep this new mentality about food and my relationship with it, and keep exercising. I can’t wait to see what happens if I keep it up