Eric’s Dream

I am really even more scared and nervous about this whole ordeal than I ever thought I would be.  I came to the realization the other day at how small this race will be.  Last year only about 35 finishers.  Hello!!!  Why didn’t I sign up for a big race, with a couple of thousand people at least, and in a place where I will not likely see anyone I  know.  If the race is anything like last year,  I will definitely be coming in last by a long shot.  I honestly just don’t want to deal with the humiliation.  There were 4 of us that decided to do this at work.  Well, one of them is now pregnant and not racing and another just told me Tues. that she has decided  not to do it either, which sort of pisses me off.  Well my best friend and I are left, and if she would have said we don’t have to do this I would have been totally for it, but she has done pretty good with her training and she is about 50 lbs lighter than me to start with so she will do great.  I am  not going to quit and drop out on her. 

I guess coming in last and being slow won’t be so bad, at least I am there and doing it.  I just hope I don’t screw up and get hurt or dehydrated or something stupid like that and people then look at me and say…..oh, she is too heavy she should not be out here trying to do something like this.  Also, I hope I am not way behind the finisher right ahead of me if I am indeed last.  I don’t want people waiting around for me, the last runner.  OK…well there are all my insecurities and fears.  Even so, I guess I am going to show up and face them….uggh…I am going to pace myself and just do my best!!

One good thing….the weather should be supreme.  Right now the forecast is saying….57 degrees at the start of the race at 0700 and hopefully it won’t get higher than 75 by the time I finish.  Also, wind is only supposed to be 7-8 mph.  That sounds perfect weather wise.

Thanks for the well wishes.  I will give you an update when it is over.