Eric’s Dream

I’m back. I know, I didn’t even post my birthday weight. It wasn’t that great. My last week before my birthday I gained 3 pounds, going to 226. This past week I lost 2 pounds, going down to 224, although I think this may be attributed to my being low on water that day.

I like Audra’s posted excerpt. There certainly is a lot to be said for the power of discipline. I think it is hard to be disciplined since it is attached to this uncomfortable, cold, prickly feeling of being tired and not having fun – at least that is my take on it. In the back of my mind, when I think of discipline, this is the feeling it gives me. I know I should not associate it so negatively, and my attitude about it is probably working against me.

I have to be at work in an hour, which I am not really looking forward to (who does look forward to work?). I get 40 hours a week + at the bowling alley where I work in the snack bar, which is good for money, but they are very short on help, so you get stuck working long hours, by yourself in the snack bar sometimes, and this week I was scheduled for 6 days, where I would obviously like like to have 2 days off in a week rather than 1. It’s bad enough that when I do get 2 days off in a week they are never together.

That is not really diet-related, but I am feeling really tired and the idea of being disciplined and working out like I should makes me even more tired. I don’t know how people do so much, because I am sure that what I do doens’t even come close to the amount that others do.

While, honestly I am feeling less than optimistic this week I know that I have to get back on the wagon, otherwise I am just going to gain back all the weight that I lost and never even reach my goal of 220, let alone lose more weight than that and get down into the 100’s.